Thursday, May 17, 2007

Recently, a major shift is occuring in my life... To be under my parents' house again and even though no curfews are imposed on me, invisible lines are there waiting to be stepped on... It is really hard to be constrained again when you have already tasted freedom...

Someone hurt me once again... And once again, I asked myself if I am over-sensitive... It definitely brought back certain histories that I dun wish to reminisce in... I dunno if it is because I am too naive, vulnerable maybe? I just wish that I can be happy in everything I do...

To the one who hurt me probably without knowing it...
I know you probably din mean it... Maybe you're hurting to and you are protecting yourself... I just want you to know all the tears and sweat I've given to you are beyond what I think you deserve... I need something back... Something that makes it all worthwhile... I am sorry for feeling the way I feel, for I am not perfect, the love I can give is not unconditional...

Came back after a jog... It was a good workout... And I feel so much better... I really wanna slim down... Really wanna get the motivation to find a good job... Really want to be perfect...

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If you're sleeping are you dreaming?
If you're dreaming are you dreaming of me?
She waited on 11:01 PM til eternity...