Thursday, November 30, 2006

Finally, hell is over... Haha... Felt as though exams are like hell... But still... IT'S OVER!!!! Yippee~~!!

Now taking a short break from everything... I wanna play play play... Hahaha... But I woke up at 11+++ felt like I lost so much time... Argh! Hate it...

Went shopping yesterday with Janice... Cool... We tried on lotsa clothes... Ok lah~! I din buy much... Just a plain grey top from Zara... But it was still a great outing... Tried the food in New York New York at Citylink... The food was really nice... The pasta!! Yum...

We also went for eyebrow treading in Little India... It was an experience on its own... Haha... And no, it is not painful...

Anyhow, talking about pain, I think I wanna get a tattoo... Initial design is still processing but I have an idea le... Cool huh... I am still gonna do a little survey to see how people around me think about the design...


She waited on 12:05 PM til eternity...

Monday, November 27, 2006

Another paper that I cannot finish... Haiz... All the year 4 papers have been like this... Why oh why???

Apparently my life has approached its glorious end... Haha... I will be a farking nun from now on... What's the point? Why give a part of yourself to someone who will tear it up and stomp on it... It's not as much as you don't appreciate it... Maybe you do enjoy tearing and stomping... But how about the person? Doesn't she matter?

Well, I think psychological help is needed... Seriously, it wouldn't kill to have some help sometimes... We are not all superheroes... I try to be... But it is not easy... You can break down... You will emerge stronger... Seek help when you need it... Cry if it makes you feel better... It's all for your benefit...

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Far Away

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there’s just one left
‘Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you’ll be with me
and you’ll never go
Stop breathing if
I don’t see you anymore

On my knees, I’ll ask
Last chance for one last dance
‘Cause with you, I’d withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I’d give it all
I’d give for us
Give anything but I won’t give up
‘Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you’ll be with me
and you’ll never go
Stop breathing if
I don’t see you anymore

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
‘Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
‘Cause I’m not leaving
Hold on to me and
never let me go
She waited on 10:58 PM til eternity...

Saturday, November 25, 2006

Don't you feel sometimes that there are music everywhere you go... Even as the exams are going on?? I remember having a bad migraine as I was doing my E&S paper... I was really in need of some music to soothe my head... But then in the exam hall, all I hear is a harmony of "cough-cough", "ah-choo!", "sniff-sniff"...

Then I did what I need to be in peace... I started humming pieces from the Maksim CD... I remember humming flight of the bumblebee to chase the migraine away and the slower piece Claudine to get me through the paper without me thinking of the aching pain in my hand...

Well, my hand was still cramped up by the end of the paper... Don't understand why the school is cutting short the time for the exam paper... Yet the exam questions are the same... Previously those papers that we cannot finish in time, we're gonna even be answering less than what we can... Don't see how this can bring up our GPA, not to mention the school's ranking... Hear, hear...

Anyway, I've got a webcam... From someone... Hahaha... I'm not gonna say who... You might know him very well... Cool stuff... But now is not the time to be distracted by it yet... Let the exams finish first!!!

Gotta go back to my books... Then wed will be the day we go out, hit the streets and hav fun!!! Woo-hoo!!
She waited on 1:05 PM til eternity...

Thursday, November 23, 2006

She waited on 10:38 PM til eternity...

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

"Girl... Don't think so much lah..."

I think this will be the answer when if I told her about how I feel... But somehow, even though I know it is insignificant, I am still hurt... But what can I do?

I guess it's time to focus more on other things... To be nonchalant about it... Yeah... It's always your loss...

On another note... We were again having fun while dealing with the stresses of exams... We were bored... Yes... Very bored... Playing with candles, mosquito coils and matches... Stress would even describe it...

A light snack... Yum...

My spoons and fork collections... Haha... Like real... Anyway, notice the one in the center... Spiky!!!

I think that we are all very stressed...

She waited on 11:48 PM til eternity...

This is what I did today...

Go for paper... Did my best (60marks!!!) Dunno why so heng they test html and javascript... Please let me pass...

Finished the paper... Drained... Go can B buy food back to eat... Watched part of the show with Janice... Tao Hua Yun!!! Gemini and Pisces... Hmmm... Haha...

After that, I packed and took a long shower (basically, just standing under the running water and clearing my brain)... And I came out to study at S2 (or outside LT25...)...

Around 4+ went to buy dinner... Study... Write...

At around 11... Went macs to buy McNuggets... Yum!! Study... Write...

Damned... Super shagged already... But I dong it... Finally, go back at 1... And fell asleep straight away... It is really a tiring day...
She waited on 1:00 AM til eternity...

Monday, November 20, 2006

The seven deadly sins... Dunno about you all but I think I am susceptible to all of them... I must be a really bad girl...

Lust: Haha... That I am... Lusting after others...
Gluttony: This includes wastage too... Looking at all the food I had wasted before... And excess of food which I deem my favourite...
Avarice: Yes!!! Gimme money!!!
Sloth: If you give me a choice, I can sleep the whole day away...
Wrath: Don't even start with that... You haven't seen me angry before...
Envy: People with straight hair, with permed hair, with slim figures, with doting bfs... Watch out...
Pride: Yes I know I am fat... But at least I am clever... Hahaha... What a proud statement...

If this goes on, I will be in hell very soon... *yawnz* So sleepy!!!
She waited on 12:40 PM til eternity...

Sunday, November 19, 2006

Sunday... Supposedly a day of rest and Sabbath... But instead... We are all mugging our heads off for the exams!!

Except for me... That time of the month... And it seems to hit me harder than usual... Feeling all the lethargy but I know I am supposed to be studying... It is scary... I am watching extreme makeover: Home edition... Touching story...

Anyhow... Been getting really weird thoughts, dreams... What is it like to be God? If I can have you, what would it be like? If things are same but I am different, how different would it be? It's all messing up my mind... I am going crazy...



Just another picture I took when I took a walk back hall... Thought the tree looked really nice shedding flowers... Sharing its beauty... Maybe it is a really badly taken picture... But I quite like the light effects...
She waited on 3:17 PM til eternity...

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Been through 2 papers... It's so tiring... Yet I push myself harder for the paper tml... I feel like I am falling sick... And I can't wait to get home... To get the room to myself... Especially when I sleep... I really need SLEEP!!!

I guess I am getting those moods swings... Really pisses me off... And I can't express myself out loud coz pple get turned off by it... and I dun have private space for me to work it out!!! ARGHZZZ!!!!! I am going crazy soon!!! *boo-hoo* Wanna cry... Lend me your shoulders... And sleeves...

I better go sleep... Tml HRM... Die!!!!
She waited on 11:52 PM til eternity...

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

By tml this time, I will be in exam hall E taking my first paper... Believe it or not, I still feel rather unprepared... I'm still not feeling the stress... I am just going crazy due to overstudying...

Now alone here in South Spine... Gonna chiong one last day for the 2 papers... I feel like focusing on one paper only... But it would be a risk... I try not to give up on any modules...

Ok... Back to studies with me... Work hard now for a better tml... Hahahaha...
She waited on 9:32 AM til eternity...

Monday, November 13, 2006

The week at the starting of the exams...

I dunno why I dun even feel the least stress... So strange... Maybe I am just studying very hard, harder than I ever did before anywhere else... Be it PSLE, O Levels, Poly... I've not felt so tired before... But my mind has never been more clear... I want it to be over soon... I will do my best for all...

It's all for a good cause... And once it's over, I can celebrate and play again... Well, can't say it's all suffer all the way... Especially when they're (he's) there... It's always great...

Gonna fall asleep soon... It's time to adjust back my bio clock to suit exam timings... Wake up at 8 so gonna sleep soon... If not sure not enough rest...

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I dunno why you are avoiding me... But whatever makes you happy... If you wanna know, you're always not around at times like this... When we're together, it's just you making use of me and me making use of you... But it's whatever makes us happy too isn't it?
She waited on 12:48 AM til eternity...

Saturday, November 11, 2006

Been studying real hard the past few days... The feeling of studying til no day no night is damn shag... So if my language deteriorates, please forgive me...

It wasn't all just plain boring mugging for this gang... I dunno what to call this weird bunch of people (me including!!)... We study and laugh... Laughter is a good way to relieve stress... And it is always so happy... In order to be able to study effectively with us, you must know how to control your switching of attention... One minute you may be laughing at the jokes, the next you will need to turn back to your work and continue from where you are...

I guess it is not so much of a problem for me... I can switch quite fast... Laugh laugh then serious again... It's relaxing and fun, at least not so stressed... Happy that I've at least met these people in my life in NTU... Make my life worthwhile for a little while more... To Tom, Dick and Harry... I hope your dreams will come true...
She waited on 1:45 AM til eternity...

Thursday, November 09, 2006

Exams is coming... One more week to my first 2 papers... Yes! I have 2 papers on that day... Sian... Anyway I know I've been studying really hard... Harder than I did for most of my years ever... Just hope my efforts pays off...

But of course it is not all studying... Must relax and let your brain rest abit sometimes...

My Study Partner: Eeyore... Notice on its head the stylish Oakley glasses...

Other than taking pictures, we sing songs like... "This old man... He play one..." or "Sunny day slipping the clouds away..." Going bonkers...

My di also very cute lah.. Send me our pictures from maple...

And finally, the cookie monster!!! Though I admit I like Eeyore and Elmo more... Cookie monster is the man... Nv fail to entice me with his BIG cookie!!!!

She waited on 2:01 AM til eternity...

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

我想我才了解，我正搁浅在爱情过敏的季节。。。

Round one: A losing battle when your opponent does not wanna fight back...
Round two: Lost because the opponent has super powers... Sianz...

I dunno how I land myself once again in this situation... A damn tangled up web and yet knowingly, I jump right into it... I think it's time for me to give up... If I lay really still, maybe I will not hurt myself too much...

Exam stress!!! Anyway, the ah-tiongs in the tut rooms are just ill-disciplined lah... Kissing, hugging, screwing inside the room... Gross... If you knew, would you still wanna sit there? Eurgh!
She waited on 12:23 AM til eternity...

Saturday, November 04, 2006

Life is a ever changing surprise... Especially for me this week... Hero turned to zero... Love turned to dust... Sometimes, life just comes and hit you on the head (hard!) and you definitely will not notice it... Chances come knocking on doors the same way... But what if the chance is risk in reality? To take or not the chance?

Hurt is always underneath the surface of happiness... Threatening to bubble up when you least expects it... When you are leasr prepared... I burst my bubble today... When I see that there could not be a chance, at least not now...

Is it alright to cry so much after my eyesight has regained? Will I go blind? Maybe it is better... Then I can't see the source of my hurt... Maybe I won't be hurt...

Did you go hide it all? I know you did not mention it... Maybe you thought you will be safe... But I think you thought wrong... Why put yourself in such precarious position? Why do you hang yourself so high up to attract my attention when you are actually so out of reach?

Maybe it is me... Maybe I shld go die...
She waited on 12:01 AM til eternity...

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

After the scare yesterday, I guess I will be more careful... No more contacts for me already... Damn... That means I must get a pair of normal glasses... My eye is still swollen... A little while and it starts to feel strenuous... It really make me more appreciative of the people around me... Whom I love and care about... Makes me really sad if I dun get to see them again...

Taking a day off... A really sick way to get through this supposedly busy period... I hate the way I can't do my work because I can't see properly... At least it is no longer that painful... The agony I felt yesterday... Never wanna feel that again... I feel so bad to be inefficient... And my group mates, who will be in one way or another, affected by my incapabilities...

I hope I will somehow get the strength to get it through the rest of the week... Hopefully by tml I will get my answer...

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我终于还是说了一句我爱你
还记得那个微凉夜里天空正飘着小雨
心跳的声音像舞动奇迹

你看着我说千万不要爱上你
因为你只会让我伤心
别傻了快点喊停
你那么冷静忽远又忽近

我知道我对你来说也许太年轻
我想我猜我问我终于了解
原来为爱流的眼泪也是种甜蜜滋味

只想爱你当我和你走在一起就已经决定
不看不听不问也不会放弃
是你让我了解自己可以为爱那么坚定

只想爱你好想每天睁开眼睛就能看到你
我知道我偶尔有一点任性
不管你做任何决定究竟爱我还是逃避

sorry我还是不会放弃爱你
sorry我还是不会放弃
我还是不会放弃爱你
She waited on 1:01 PM til eternity...