Friday, June 26, 2009
I don't know what else to think anymore. My head spins too fast, it's hard to think. But spinning is better than feeling. Coz once my mind clears and feelings take over, I would be crippled.
It has been damn long since it had last happened. The emotional robber had not struck for quite some time. But when it did, it not only left a huge gash in my heart. He broke my faith in God, in friendships and in my trust for others. The only thing created was a huge thick wall which had to be torn down slowly again.
My fault entirely for falling before spying - I had let my guard down. Perhaps it was the attention, the inter-dependency. But I had picked myself up, I have talked myself through. It will not be a hinderance. I believe in karma. I believe that when you stand in front of God, you are gonna be questioned and you will be punished.
But for now, you're no longer priority. My work still comes first.
Soundtrack for now:
You're Not Sorry - Taylor Swift
Hush Hush (mash-up) - PCD
No Surprise - Chris Daughtry
Come Back to Me - David Cook
The Climb - Miley Cyrus
She waited on 11:42 PM til eternity...